12/25/2003
hey guys, this is a personaility quiz i took...these are the results..i would really like some opinion on whether i am really like that..so...leave me a msg on tagboard kaez? thanks!

Your Existing Situation

Unwilling to extend herself or exert undue effort (with the possible
exception of sexual activity). Feels that further progress requires more
from her than she is willing or able to give. Would prefer reasonable
comfort and security rather than the rewards of greater ambition.

Your Stress Sources

Unfulfilled hopes have led to uncertainty and apprehension. Needs to
feel secure and to avoid any further disappointment, and fears being
passed over or losing standings and prestige. Doubts that things will be
any better in the future and this negative attitude leads her to make
exaggerated demands and to refuse to make reasonable compromises.

Your Restrained Characteristics

Emotionally inhibited. Feels forced to compromise, making it difficult
for her to form a stable emotional attachment.

Believes that she is
not receiving her share--that she is neither properly understood or
adequately appreciated. Feels that she is being compelled to conform, and
close relationships leave her without any sense of emotional
involvement.

Your Desired Objective

Fascinated by the idea of an idealized association of tenderness and
mutual enchantment. Embarrassed by the thought of allowing this to appear
openly, and so employs cautious exploratory tactics in the pursuit of
this objective, making sure that she is neither irrevocably committed
nor found out.

Your Actual Problem

Disappointment at the non-fulfillment of her hopes and the fear that to
formulate fresh goals will only lead to further setbacks have resulted
in considerable anxiety. She tries to escape from this by withdrawing
and protecting herself with an attitude of cautious reserve. Moody and
depressed.


voNnNnNnN' @ 12:31:00 PM/

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Five For Fighting Superman lyrics

I can't stand to fly
I'm not that nieve
I'm just out to find
The better part of me

I'm more than a birdaaI'm more than a plane
More than some pretty face beside a train
It's not easy to be me

Wish that I could cry
Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie
About a home I'll never see

It may sound absurdaabut don't be nieve
Even Heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbedaabut won't you conceed
Even Heroes have the right to dream
It's not easy to be me

Up, up and awayaaaway from me
It's all rightaaYou can all sleep sound tonight
I'm not crazyaaor anythingaa

I can't stand to fly
I'm not that nieve
Men weren't meant to ride
With clouds between their knees

I'm only a man in a silly red sheet
Digging for kryptonite on this one way street
Only a man in a funny red sheet
Looking for special things inside of me

It's not easy to be me.


voNnNnNnN' @ 11:12:00 AM/

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12/23/2003
i think...i have grown stronger..yeah of course i still feel bouts of loneliness..but yupz, i am happy lah, i suppose. i have great frens u noe..pple that i really care bout and feel that they feel the same too...and i guess...mr right will come..when the time comes..and when i least expect it..but hold on guys. dun start matchmaking me wif ANY guy, dun say no, i noe it...u guys will start thinking of eligible guys for me...

aniwae..life does sucks...oh well..i highlighted my hair todae..quite happy wif e results..at the same time...i am not that happy after all..because of something. my fren, my good fren..has some problem wif her bf...i dunno why i feel sad for her...why can't things go perfectly...why the perfect one must have some flaws? why fate always play tricks on us? why does things dun go the way we want them too? why it's not always us who is the glamorous. the perfect. the wonderful one? why issit always someone else?

alright..this is getting depressing...take care guys....i shall go...sulk in a corner..
voNnNnNnN' @ 9:48:00 PM/

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One day an old man boarded a bus. As he was going up the steps, one of his
shoes slipped off. The door closed and the bus moved off so he was unable to retrieve it. The old man calmly took off his other shoe and threw it out
of the window.

A young man on the bus saw what happened, and could not help going up to
the old man and asking, "I noticed what you did sir. Why did you throw out
your other shoe?" The old man promptly replied, "So that whoever finds them
will be able to use them as a complete pair."

The old man in the story understood a fundamental philosophy for life - do
not hold on to something simply for the sake of possessing it or because
you do not wish others to have it. We lose things all the time. The loss
may seem to us grievous and unjust initially, but loss only happens so that
positive changes can occur in our lives. We should not always assume that
losing something is bad, because if things do not shift, we'll never become
better people or experience better things.

That's not to say of course that we only lose "bad" things; it simply means
that in order for us to mature emotionally and spiritually, and for us to
contribute to the world, the interchange between loss and gain is
necessary.

Like the old man in the story, we have to learn to let go. The world had
decided that it was time for the old man to lose his shoe. Maybe this
happened to add momentum to a series of events leading to a better pair of
shoes for the old man. Maybe the search for another pair of shoes would
lead the old man to a great benefactor. Maybe the world decided that
someone else needed the shoes
more. Whatever the reason, we can't avoid losing things. Be it your job or
business, your love ones, your money, your possessions, and your
everything. We can't avoid losing things. The old man understood this. One
of his shoes had gone out of his reach. The remaining shoe would not have
been much help to him, but it would be a cherished gift to a homeless
person desperately in need of protection from the ground. Hoarding
possessions does nothing to make us or the world better. We all
have to decide constantly if some things or people have run their course in
our lives or would be better off with others. We then have to muster the
courage to give them away.
voNnNnNnN' @ 9:38:00 PM/

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12/22/2003
alright, can u believe it..time passes so quickly that...it's almost christmas and end of the year...KL WAS DAMN FUN. though there were times when u were bored..pissed..blah blah..but it was fun. i am so glad i went there wif liting. mauree. yuri. christina. can u believe it? 5 of us..including my mum...haha..we really shopped like mad...act crazy..blah blah

food there is cheap..stuff also cheaper than singapore..but must look and find..and see....aniwae...i'll just update again. bout the stuff we did okayz. take care.
voNnNnNnN' @ 11:12:00 AM/

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